The last 6 months have been very rough. At times, I honestly didn't even see anything improving. I felt just lost and alone. But as a teenager, we feel that sometimes.
Well after asking people for help, I have dramatically improved. I feel so happy and loved right now. It's hard for me to ask people for help because I feel like I owe them. But, it's ok to admit that you can't do things all by yourself.
Today I was texting my friend and I complimented her. She sent me "oh my gosh. Why do I love you so much" I smiled. I felt loved, and I hadn't truly felt that way in a long time. I smiled and started typing back. "Because God had a plan to make sure we became best friends. To be there during the laughs, the boy troubles, the rebellious moments, and the pain. He knew we would need each other. Our friendship takes almost zero effort. Ya know why? Because we need each other more than anything."
After I sent that, I smiled. It was true... This girl and I, we have been through thick and think together. She knows all my secrets, my worries, the things that make me laugh, everything. We made a promise to each other a couple days ago. we promised each other that we would never tell each others secrets, never judge each other, and never turn away when the other person needed help. And ya know what? I know she will never break that promise. It is so comforting to know that there is at least one person out there that I can fully and completely trust.
This girl and I, we make each other happy. We laugh you butts off, let me tell you.
I have always loved to laugh... maybe a little too much. My dad could really make me laugh. To the point of feeling like I was dying from happiness. When I marry, the person would have to be able to make me laugh. Saying or doing something that causes me to throw my head back laughing, feeling like the luckiest girl in the whole world.
When a guy can make me laugh, I instantly find him attractive. I'm being serious. That's why I love my cousins so much, because they make me smile and laugh. Their kids are adorable and there is never a dull moment.
I love to smile. I feel incomplete with a frown, and when I'm upset.. I just don't feel like the true me.
So, today I decided to smile through all the pain, through all the adversity, and through all the confusion. It will be hard. But I just need to remember the big picture and the future.
Things always turn out ok. If it isn't ok, it isn't the end. So keep holding on and SMILE.
"Someday my prince will come and I will live happily ever after. But who says I can't be happy now? Happiness is a journey, not a destination. So I choose to be happy for now, and forever"
-Me
