I woke up Friday morning thinking today was going to be the longest most terrible day in the world. It actually went by pretty fast. When school was out I got home and saw my amazing grandparents working in the yard. I gave them hugs and we chatted and I helped out a bit. Afterwards, my grandpa took me for one of our last driving lessons. That's right! I get my license soon! So he bought me a soda at a gas station and we talked as I drove. He didn't even have to tell me anything. I was really confident and new what I was doing. I think he's pretty proud!
When I got home, I spent some time with my mom and then we watched a movie. It was a pretty good day.
That next morning, I had so much to do... I got up and put on my saturday yard work clothes. I mowed my lawn and then I curled my sisters hair for her play practice. After that, we dropped her off at her practice and I drove out to my aunt/cousins house for my nail appointment.
I always love spending time with my family. They make me laugh really hard and make me feel needed and important. I feel comfortable with them and wish we lived a little closer to them.
Anyways, When I walked into the house I was greeted my hugs and smiles and my second cousin, Lydia ran up to me excitedly. "Tiler! Tiler!" (She's almost two and says my name so cute!! I just die, she's so adorable.) I walked into my cousins room where she does nails and we got down to business. A couple minutes later, my other cousin walked in. She has two girls and I just adore them. They gave me hugs and showed me their new moves they learned in ballet. It always makes me happy when the kids come up to me wanting me to play with them or show me something. It means they like me.
The kids left and we got started on my nails again. my other cousin sat on a chair off to the side and we just talked.
We laughed and told funny stories and had a great time. My two cousins tease each other so much. It makes us all laugh and it just proves how much they love each other. They are best friends. I hope Brittany and I can have just as much fun when we are older.
We were almost done with my nails when my cousin asked if I was going to the BBQ that night for my cousin, dallas,' birthday. I shook my head. "I have to take care of my siblings tonight, my mom is busy." They laughed and grabbed their phones. "I'll call your mom and you and your siblings can just sleep over here for the night. Then you can come to the BBQ and your mom can have some time to herself." I nodded excitedly as they called my mom and explained what their plan was.
She was on-board, of course. We decided when she would bring up my siblings and after that, we finished my nails. (which I'm in love with right now.)
I helped my Cousin Shon with Lydia, her daughter. It was fun! After that we headed to the BBQ. We made a stop at the store to grab some junk food, then headed out.
When we got there, there was a huge bounce house and TONS of food. I'm not even kidding. I ate so much... It was crazy. I played with the kids and talked with the adults. There isn't really anyone my specific age to talk with, but everyone still includes me.
I really like knowing that I matter and exist to more people than just my mom and siblings. My cousins love me, their kids love me. I love all of them! It's just a big old bucket of love.
Eventually, my siblings got there and they all had a ton of fun. I helped my cousin, Taylor, with her newborn and had a ton of fun conversations with everyone.
My siblings went back to my Aunt's house with my Aunt and I stayed behind to chat and help clean up. We talked a bit more while the kids watched and movie, it was so much fun! We laughed a lot and got to know my cousins a bit more. I feel so happy and safe with them.
Pretty soon, it was time to go. We hugged goodbye and walked out the door. We got in the car. Shon and her husband Bryce sat in the front and I sat in the back with Lydia. She talked to me a lot. She asks the same question over and over again. It's really adorable. "What's that tiler?" Bryce and Shonetelle held hands as they drove home. It made me smile. They love each other.
We stopped off at artic circle to grab some shakes for the kids at home. When we got there, they were playing with the huge lego collection my Aunt has. The kids love that about her.
We ate and talked and then the kids fell asleep. Bryce had to give a lesson in church that moning so he went to work on it and then went to bed. Shon, Britt, and I stayed up and talked and played the card game "BS." It was so much fun!
My family has a lot of funny inside jokes. I caught onto them pretty quick. While we were playing the game, I accidently grabbed my cousins cards. "Don't touch my stuff!!" She said teasingly. "I'm not afraid of youuuu!" I said back. We all laughed really hard. It was the highlight of my night.
Pretty soon, we couldn't even keep our eyes open. It was past midnight and I was going to go to church with shon and Bryce that coming morning. We went to bed and of course we all woke up late. We made it to church a little after nine and I had a really fun time! Bryce had a good lesson and Lydia was really cute and fun. We left halfway through the last hour of church to go back to Dallas' to eat more food and spend time with them. It was really fun! My mom joined us there and we talked and ate some leftovers from the BBQ from the night before.
A little while later, it was time for us to go. We hugged goodbye and got in the car. We got home and relaxed for an hour or so. Then we left to go to my moms best friends house. She made a great dinner and we talked and ate popcorn and play "UNO" it was so much fun!
When we got home, I was exhausted! I went straight to bed.
I love spending time with my friends and family. I love my cousins and their kids. I hope I will and forever will be best friends with them.
-Tay
Monday, April 29, 2013
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
School sucks
Man school is rough. The homework never ends... I'm being completely serious. During the summer, you get book lists to read and huge packets to work in to prepare for your classes that coming fall. It's crazy!
I had no homework yesterday. It was a total miracle. JUST KIDDING. I literally forgot about a huge test I have today until 11 last night. Ultimate fail.
I also had driving range yesterday. I have it everyday this week, except Friday. I didn't completely fail but I could have done a little better. It's ok though, I have time to learn and practice.
Right now I'm in my study skills class. We just listen to music and do homework, which is a literal blessing from God. I swear, I do most of my homework in this class! We have laptops we can use today so instead of working on math homework and studying for a test, I'm blogging. I really have my priorities straight.
But, in a few minutes I'll hit the books and be the good, dedicated student that I am.
Just 17 more days until I'm 16. May 10th baby. I'm so close, I can't wait! Most my friends are 16 already so I kinda feel like a loser but whatever.
Only 37 days until summer. Holy cow... that's so soon. This summer is going to be the best summer of all summers. I will be able to date and drive and have more freedom. I'm so excited!
Seminary was really good today. There was a really cool quote on the board that I wish I wrote down. Essintally what is said was
"Instead of praying that the circumstances will change, pray that you will have the strength to accept the circumstances and you will have the power to change them."
I have been struggling with this idea lately. I have been going through some rough stuff and I keep praying that it will just go away. But that's not how it works. I'm praying for the wrong thing!
Well, I only have 20 more minutes of class so I should probably start studying...
peace out guys!
love, tay
I had no homework yesterday. It was a total miracle. JUST KIDDING. I literally forgot about a huge test I have today until 11 last night. Ultimate fail.
I also had driving range yesterday. I have it everyday this week, except Friday. I didn't completely fail but I could have done a little better. It's ok though, I have time to learn and practice.
Right now I'm in my study skills class. We just listen to music and do homework, which is a literal blessing from God. I swear, I do most of my homework in this class! We have laptops we can use today so instead of working on math homework and studying for a test, I'm blogging. I really have my priorities straight.
But, in a few minutes I'll hit the books and be the good, dedicated student that I am.
Just 17 more days until I'm 16. May 10th baby. I'm so close, I can't wait! Most my friends are 16 already so I kinda feel like a loser but whatever.
Only 37 days until summer. Holy cow... that's so soon. This summer is going to be the best summer of all summers. I will be able to date and drive and have more freedom. I'm so excited!
Seminary was really good today. There was a really cool quote on the board that I wish I wrote down. Essintally what is said was
"Instead of praying that the circumstances will change, pray that you will have the strength to accept the circumstances and you will have the power to change them."
I have been struggling with this idea lately. I have been going through some rough stuff and I keep praying that it will just go away. But that's not how it works. I'm praying for the wrong thing!
Well, I only have 20 more minutes of class so I should probably start studying...
peace out guys!
love, tay
Thursday, April 18, 2013
I love these girls
These girls and I love having sleepovers! I'm so thankful for them and love them so much
Just throwing it back to the good old days...
Saturday, April 13, 2013
blessings
If you really think about how blessed we are, its hard to ask for anything and feel selfish. I have a home and a family. A heavenly father who loves me and a savior who died for me. I have a temple within 2 min of my house and I have a car. I have nice clothes and my own bedroom. I have money to spend on music from itunes and mascara. I have a very loving mom who, sacrifices a lot for me. I live in a nice ward and the church building is close enough to walk to. I have good friends, a cell phone, a good school and plenty of food. I have so much to be thankful for!
But sometimes, it doesn't seem like we have any blessings. We feel alone and forgotten. Things don't go the way we are planned and our hearts get ripped out. It sucks. we get thrown a curve ball and it really hurts. You have no preparation for it.
I can remember a time when I felt this way. After my dad passed away I was pretty numb. I didn't really feel anything. It as hard! Later, I had 4 more family members die. That same year! I felt like God didn't care about me or my family. I was so afraid to love anyone or have new friends because it seemed like every time I loved someone, they were taken away from me.
But, the deaths brought my family closer together! My grandparents became my best friends and I felt emotionally closer to my dads side of the family. We and been really busy, so I didn't really see much of them. We had a lot of fun and laughed a ton. I swear, I haven't laughed that hard in a long time.
We had a couple babies born on my dads side of the family, and they are literal blessing from god. I love them so much! All of my cousins have the cutest kids I the world./Each of them have their own cute personality and bring a smile to my face one way or another.
Although I lost many people, I gained many too.
Exodus 3:7-
And the Lord said, I have surely seen thea affliction of my people which are in b Egypt, and have heard their c cry by reason of their taskmasters; for I know their sorrows;
The Lord knows every wrong that has been done to you. Every tear that has been cried. Every person that hurts you. Every injustice.
God lets things happen because they make you stronger and because it shapes you into a good person. I honestly think I'm stronger now, then I was 3 years ago.
https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1990/10/that-we-may-touch-heaven?lang=eng
Read this, it's amazing! ^^^^^^^^^^^^
Quotes:
"Anxiously you ask, “Is there a way to safety? Can someone guide me? Is there an escape from threatened destruction?” The answer is a resounding yes! I counsel you: Look to the lighthouse of the Lord. There is no fog so dense, no night so dark, no gale so strong, no mariner so lost but what its beacon light can rescue. It beckons through the storms of life. It calls, “This way to safety; this way to home.”
God counts your tears. Every single one of them! For every tear you drop, you are promised many blessings. Much love. Comfort.
My point is... that maybe your blessings and healing come through tears.
here's a cool song that I love. LISTEN to the lyrics.
Maybe the trials in this life are the mercies in disguise....
But sometimes, it doesn't seem like we have any blessings. We feel alone and forgotten. Things don't go the way we are planned and our hearts get ripped out. It sucks. we get thrown a curve ball and it really hurts. You have no preparation for it.
I can remember a time when I felt this way. After my dad passed away I was pretty numb. I didn't really feel anything. It as hard! Later, I had 4 more family members die. That same year! I felt like God didn't care about me or my family. I was so afraid to love anyone or have new friends because it seemed like every time I loved someone, they were taken away from me.
But, the deaths brought my family closer together! My grandparents became my best friends and I felt emotionally closer to my dads side of the family. We and been really busy, so I didn't really see much of them. We had a lot of fun and laughed a ton. I swear, I haven't laughed that hard in a long time.
We had a couple babies born on my dads side of the family, and they are literal blessing from god. I love them so much! All of my cousins have the cutest kids I the world./Each of them have their own cute personality and bring a smile to my face one way or another.
Although I lost many people, I gained many too.
Exodus 3:7-
And the Lord said, I have surely seen the
The Lord knows every wrong that has been done to you. Every tear that has been cried. Every person that hurts you. Every injustice.
God lets things happen because they make you stronger and because it shapes you into a good person. I honestly think I'm stronger now, then I was 3 years ago.
https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1990/10/that-we-may-touch-heaven?lang=eng
Read this, it's amazing! ^^^^^^^^^^^^
Quotes:
"Anxiously you ask, “Is there a way to safety? Can someone guide me? Is there an escape from threatened destruction?” The answer is a resounding yes! I counsel you: Look to the lighthouse of the Lord. There is no fog so dense, no night so dark, no gale so strong, no mariner so lost but what its beacon light can rescue. It beckons through the storms of life. It calls, “This way to safety; this way to home.”
You have a heritage: Honor it.
You will meet sin: Shun it.
You have the truth: Live it.
You have a testimony: Share it.
God counts your tears. Every single one of them! For every tear you drop, you are promised many blessings. Much love. Comfort.
My point is... that maybe your blessings and healing come through tears.
here's a cool song that I love. LISTEN to the lyrics.
Maybe the trials in this life are the mercies in disguise....
Thursday, April 11, 2013
I survived!!
In my last post I talked about this really rude girl in one of my classes.... And guess what? I survived that class today. It was rough and painful, but I didn't punch her in the face!!
I consider that an accomplishment.
I'm totally kidding... there is no way I could ever punch anyone.... Except for myself. But that is usually an accident.
I ignored her rude comments and complimented her like 20 zillion times. I ran out of things to say so then I asked her questions about what she kept talking about and bringing up over and over again. I could tell she wanted attention, so I gave it to her. Sometimes that's all people just want. A little attention.
Honestly... Everything she was telling me scared the crap out of me and i kept begging her in my mind to stop, but I tried to act interested. She grew to like me a bit more at the end of the class and I felt success... followed by complete exhaustion!!
The girl just wore me out, man.
Anyways... Then when I got home I ate a snack then got in MY CAR. That's right... I have a car.
Not to brag or anything.. but it's a used 2002 Mazda 626 Sedan. That's a mouthful huh? It's really old and not that great, but I don't care. A car is a car and I'm just thankful to have one!
No, I'm not 16 yet... May 10th is the day. Just 29 more days, baby.
Anyways, my grandpa came over and he gave me another driving lesson. Today we did parallel parking and then went to Mcdonalds for a Soda. It was a party :) I'm not too bad of a driver actually! I'm confident and focused.
My grandpa is an excellent driver so I feel good about learning from the best!
So, I survived parallel parking AND a cranky chick all in one day. yep. I'm a boss....
Just for fun... More cute pictures of my family!!
I consider that an accomplishment.
I'm totally kidding... there is no way I could ever punch anyone.... Except for myself. But that is usually an accident.
I ignored her rude comments and complimented her like 20 zillion times. I ran out of things to say so then I asked her questions about what she kept talking about and bringing up over and over again. I could tell she wanted attention, so I gave it to her. Sometimes that's all people just want. A little attention.
Honestly... Everything she was telling me scared the crap out of me and i kept begging her in my mind to stop, but I tried to act interested. She grew to like me a bit more at the end of the class and I felt success... followed by complete exhaustion!!
The girl just wore me out, man.
Anyways... Then when I got home I ate a snack then got in MY CAR. That's right... I have a car.
Not to brag or anything.. but it's a used 2002 Mazda 626 Sedan. That's a mouthful huh? It's really old and not that great, but I don't care. A car is a car and I'm just thankful to have one!
No, I'm not 16 yet... May 10th is the day. Just 29 more days, baby.
Anyways, my grandpa came over and he gave me another driving lesson. Today we did parallel parking and then went to Mcdonalds for a Soda. It was a party :) I'm not too bad of a driver actually! I'm confident and focused.
My grandpa is an excellent driver so I feel good about learning from the best!
So, I survived parallel parking AND a cranky chick all in one day. yep. I'm a boss....
Just for fun... More cute pictures of my family!!
Connor
Brittany and Grandma
So cute!
Brittany
My mom is SO cute!
... Ya. My sister is adorable.
Sorry boys, She's not 16 yet.
Siblings
Us three girls squeeze into a huge pair of pants.
Like professionals
My connor boy
Grandma and connor
Sisters
FAMILY
Ohana means family.... family means no one gets left behind or forgotten."
Name that movie.
LILO AND STITCH.
I love that quote... It's adorable and true. Please stick with your family. They love you and will never forget you or leave you behind.
Peace out Y'all.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Worth your time?
What is worth your time? Specifically, WHO is worth your time, tears, and laughs?
There are gonna be people out there that don't like you, or are rude, or push your buttons or just drive you crazy. But before you get all upset, just think. Are they worth it? Are they worth arguing with? Are they worth missing or worrying about?
Now, every single person in this world has worth. They are important to Heavenly Father and many others in this world. I'm not saying that they aren't but you just need to realize that maybe it's not worth getting all worked up over something stupid with someone that isn't worth all the fuss.
There is this girl in one of my classes, 4th period. She drives me absolutely insane! She has been through some rough stuff so I try to give her the benefit of the doubt but she is so rude to me, It's really surprising. She is very blunt and... straight forward... and overly controlling. You know the type, right?
This girl and I have never had an actual conversation. I'm surprised we even know each others names! Yet, Somehow she finds a reason to hate my guts. I have done nothing but do everything she asks... or more so tells me to do. There is no "please" or "thank you". She does nothing but order me around. But, I grit my teeth and do as she asks because I'm not going to cause a scene. It's not worth it.
In this class we do many group activities. We always have the same group, so there is no way of "escaping" her. We each have a special job to do in each activity and we are assigned the jobs as well as supposed to help our other group members finish their jobs. It's supposed to be a very fun class but I have a hard time smiling now!!
I had finished my job and so had my other group members, except for this girl. We walked up and started helping her. She didn't mind the other people helping her, but once I walked up and started helping, she said a very rude comment towards me.
"You know I can do that, right?" with a snotty tone. "Ya! I was trying to help. It's no big deal... Many hands make the work easy." She rolled her eyes and took what I was helping her do out of my hands and stormed off. I stood there with my mouth open, having a hard time believing that she had the nerve to say that. Anger built up inside me and as she walked back towards me, I clenched my fist. I was so angry. I have been nothing but nice to her and she was so rude to me!! I walked off and helped my teacher with an activity she needed and when I came back, she was talking rude about me with the other group members. They just kinda sat there awkwardly. She gave me a death glare.... and I smiled.
The rude attitude continued and it seemed like every 5 min. I got my feelings hurt again and again. I wanted to punch her right in the mouth. I almost said something like "Hey, I know you don't like me and I'm sorry if I have offended you in any way, but could you please try to be a bit nicer?" But I don't have the guts to say it. Plus I would feel like a terrible person afterwards too.
When the group activity was over, I walked over to this adorable girl in my group and whispered "Does so-and-so hate me or something?" She laughed a bit and nodded. "She says you bug her." I giggled and felt really stupid. I started to walk away but the girl stopped me and said "But, it's not worth getting upset over. She's just grumpy or something." I nodded and smiled even though I was very hurt.
I was so angry, I couldn't stop thinking about it. But now, I'm fine. There will be rude people out there. But it's not worth getting upset over something like this. I just need to turn the other cheek, like Christ did and move on with my life. Arguing with her will get me no where.
I'm sure if she really got to know me, she wouldn't hate me. I'm a nice person... I'm sure I'm annoying sometimes but so is everyone! We all have our moments.
So, motto to this story: Pick your fights, but make sure they are worth it. If they aren't then just brush it off.
And... don't judge people before you really know them. you don't know what they have gone through and what they are currently going through. So just be nice to everyone and smile at those who frown.
peace out!
Tay
There are gonna be people out there that don't like you, or are rude, or push your buttons or just drive you crazy. But before you get all upset, just think. Are they worth it? Are they worth arguing with? Are they worth missing or worrying about?
Now, every single person in this world has worth. They are important to Heavenly Father and many others in this world. I'm not saying that they aren't but you just need to realize that maybe it's not worth getting all worked up over something stupid with someone that isn't worth all the fuss.
There is this girl in one of my classes, 4th period. She drives me absolutely insane! She has been through some rough stuff so I try to give her the benefit of the doubt but she is so rude to me, It's really surprising. She is very blunt and... straight forward... and overly controlling. You know the type, right?
This girl and I have never had an actual conversation. I'm surprised we even know each others names! Yet, Somehow she finds a reason to hate my guts. I have done nothing but do everything she asks... or more so tells me to do. There is no "please" or "thank you". She does nothing but order me around. But, I grit my teeth and do as she asks because I'm not going to cause a scene. It's not worth it.
In this class we do many group activities. We always have the same group, so there is no way of "escaping" her. We each have a special job to do in each activity and we are assigned the jobs as well as supposed to help our other group members finish their jobs. It's supposed to be a very fun class but I have a hard time smiling now!!
I had finished my job and so had my other group members, except for this girl. We walked up and started helping her. She didn't mind the other people helping her, but once I walked up and started helping, she said a very rude comment towards me.
"You know I can do that, right?" with a snotty tone. "Ya! I was trying to help. It's no big deal... Many hands make the work easy." She rolled her eyes and took what I was helping her do out of my hands and stormed off. I stood there with my mouth open, having a hard time believing that she had the nerve to say that. Anger built up inside me and as she walked back towards me, I clenched my fist. I was so angry. I have been nothing but nice to her and she was so rude to me!! I walked off and helped my teacher with an activity she needed and when I came back, she was talking rude about me with the other group members. They just kinda sat there awkwardly. She gave me a death glare.... and I smiled.
The rude attitude continued and it seemed like every 5 min. I got my feelings hurt again and again. I wanted to punch her right in the mouth. I almost said something like "Hey, I know you don't like me and I'm sorry if I have offended you in any way, but could you please try to be a bit nicer?" But I don't have the guts to say it. Plus I would feel like a terrible person afterwards too.
When the group activity was over, I walked over to this adorable girl in my group and whispered "Does so-and-so hate me or something?" She laughed a bit and nodded. "She says you bug her." I giggled and felt really stupid. I started to walk away but the girl stopped me and said "But, it's not worth getting upset over. She's just grumpy or something." I nodded and smiled even though I was very hurt.
I was so angry, I couldn't stop thinking about it. But now, I'm fine. There will be rude people out there. But it's not worth getting upset over something like this. I just need to turn the other cheek, like Christ did and move on with my life. Arguing with her will get me no where.
I'm sure if she really got to know me, she wouldn't hate me. I'm a nice person... I'm sure I'm annoying sometimes but so is everyone! We all have our moments.
So, motto to this story: Pick your fights, but make sure they are worth it. If they aren't then just brush it off.
And... don't judge people before you really know them. you don't know what they have gone through and what they are currently going through. So just be nice to everyone and smile at those who frown.
peace out!
Tay
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Looking back into the past
I have recently been looking at old pictures I have of my family. They make me so happy!!
Here's a couple I just love:
Here's a couple I just love:
Connor
Connor
Connor
Brittany
Brittany
Brittany
McCoy
Me
Brittany and I
Brittany and I
Brittany and I
I love this picture so much!
Brittany, McCoy, and Connor
McCoy
The boys
Cuties in time out
My cousin got married, She and Brittany pretty much look adorable
Proof that even at a young age I loved kids
Me
At Yuba lake with the Hunts, Our good friends.
Brittany is in the front
Me
Connor
I love my family so much. They make me laugh and smile everyday. Sometimes the make me want to explode, But they are family. And that's their job, right?
I feel bad because I haven't blogged in weeks... I have been so busy and sick here and there. No fun.
Over spring break, I spent most of my time with my family. I got to see my Aunt that lives in New Hampshire and then I got to see my cousins and Aunt yesterday and Friday. We had so much fun! We went shopping and I got my nails done. I love them! Shontelle, my cousin, is really good at Acrylic nails. I have so much fun when I go and see her and my other cousins. Plus, I love their kids.
I'm always really happy when I'm with my family. It doesn't matter what we are doing, I just like knowing that they love and care about me. I think about my future all the time and I always wonder how they will fit into it.
Will one of my second cousins be the flower girl at my wedding? Will my children know each of my cousins by name and get excited every time they come over? Will my grandparents be the first people at the hospital when I give birth to my first baby? Will I spend holidays with them?
I pray that I will and always will be close to both my mom and dads side of the family. They mean so much to me, I hope they know that.
Watch general conference guys! It's amazing.
Peace out
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