blessings

If you really think about how blessed we are, its hard to ask for anything and feel selfish. I have a home and a family. A heavenly father who loves me and a savior who died for me. I have a temple within 2 min of my house and I have a car. I have nice clothes and my own bedroom. I have money to spend on music from itunes and mascara.  I have a very loving mom who, sacrifices a lot for me.  I live in a nice ward and the church building is close enough to walk to.  I have good friends, a cell phone, a good school and plenty of food.  I have so much to be thankful for!

But sometimes, it doesn't seem like we have any blessings. We feel alone and forgotten. Things don't go the way we are planned and our hearts get ripped out. It sucks.  we get thrown a curve ball and it really hurts. You have no preparation for it.

I can remember a time when I felt this way.  After my dad passed away I was pretty numb. I didn't really feel anything. It as hard!  Later, I had 4 more family members die.  That same year! I felt like God didn't care about me or my family. I was so afraid to love anyone or have new friends because it seemed like every time I loved someone, they were taken away from me.

But, the deaths brought my family closer together! My grandparents became my best friends and I felt emotionally closer to my dads side of the family.  We and been really busy, so I didn't really see much of them.  We had a lot of fun and laughed a ton.  I swear, I haven't laughed that hard in a long time.

We had a couple babies born on my dads side of the family, and they are literal blessing from god.  I love them so much!  All of my cousins have the cutest kids I the world./Each of them have their own cute personality and bring a smile to my face one way or another.

Although I lost many people, I gained many too.

Exodus 3:7- 
And the Lord said, I have surely seen the ^aaffliction of my people which are in ^bEgypt, and have heard their ^ccry by reason of their taskmasters; for I know their sorrows;

The Lord knows every wrong that has been done to you. Every tear that has been cried.  Every person that hurts you.  Every injustice.

God lets things happen because they make you stronger and because it shapes you into a good person.  I honestly think I'm stronger now, then I was 3 years ago.

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1990/10/that-we-may-touch-heaven?lang=eng

Read this, it's amazing! ^^^^^^^^^^^^

Quotes: 

"Anxiously you ask, “Is there a way to safety? Can someone guide me? Is there an escape from threatened destruction?” The answer is a resounding yes! I counsel you: Look to the lighthouse of the Lord. There is no fog so dense, no night so dark, no gale so strong, no mariner so lost but what its beacon light can rescue. It beckons through the storms of life. It calls, “This way to safety; this way to home.”

You have a heritage: Honor it.

You will meet sin: Shun it.

You have the truth: Live it.

You have a testimony: Share it.

God counts your tears. Every single one of them!  For every tear you drop, you are promised many blessings.  Much love.  Comfort.  

My point is... that maybe your blessings and healing come through tears.

here's a cool song that I love. LISTEN to the lyrics.


Maybe the trials in this life are the mercies in disguise....